What’s life without crests and troughs? That’s what I think about when I look back at June. It’s been a very unpredictable month especially after the relative calm of May. Every June (or at least that’s what it feels like) I seem to go into a mode of overwhelm, either as a mom or as a woman. I’m not sure if it’s the back-to-school routine that has this effect or something in the air which helps it along.
Either way, June began with a lot of challenges. But I am going to talk about them all as well as the gratitude I have for each of them because it’s important. It’s necessary to see everything as a speck in the larger scheme of things. If there’s one thing that the gratitude habit has taught me, it’s that we must never look at things in isolation.
And so, here’s looking back at you, June.
The month began with Gy going back to school. A lump rises in my throat every time this happens because it feels like she is growing up way too fast. But with that growth also comes a sense of maturity, more responsibility and an emotional understanding.
So it kind of hit me with a blow when she fell sick in the first week! And this is a kid who rarely falls sick. When I got the call from school that she was holding her head in pain and was in tears I couldn’t rest until I saw her and held her in my arms. No matter how old they get, they’re still these precious bundles that we gave birth to and these situations make me feel them very keenly.
Watching her in pain over the next 5 days was gut-wrenching and it took a lot out of me emotionally and physically. But I was grateful for the flexibility of my business that allowed me to be with her at odd hours. Plus I am ever grateful for the love and care of her friends and our neighbours who generously offered to help out in any way possible.
I’ve become a bit self-conscious when it comes to talking about my work here, probably because I do a lot of it on Instagram and Twitter and Facebook already. Rather self-indulgent, maybe? So I won’t bore you with the details.
But I did have a very low phase in the early part of June which made me second guess my decision. You may have read about it already.
What I am grateful for, though, is the presence of friends and well-wishers who helped pull me out of that phase. Where would I be without them?
I’ve become more conscious and determined to make health an ongoing priority. I’ve been walking regularly and can definitely improve on some other fronts.
Of course there were naysayers, especially the one person who chose to body shame me about eating a slice of cake. While that was mildly upsetting, I’ve chosen to take the high road and let it go.
Life’s too short to be spent on explaining yourself and your choices to people. This is a big change, by the way. I am usually very defensive and tend to go on and on about the validity of my decision. Maybe crossing into a new decade has brought more wisdom with it. Well, one can hope. 😉
I managed to finish one book and what a book it was: The boy in the Striped Pyjamas. The fable of a boy set against the backdrop of World War 2 is so achingly well-written that I can still feel the effects of it, nearly a fortnight later.
Warning: Do not read this one when you feel vulnerable or tired. It will break you.
There are books. And then there are books like this one which leave you feeling like a part of you is empty when you finish reading it. A powerful, painful book that looks at one of the most brutal times in History through the eyes of an innocent child. Something has changed inside me today. Something that won’t go away for a long, long, long time. 5 stars. #bookstagram #Books #AmReading
June 1st also saw me complete 1000 days of being yell-free at my daughter. I honestly don’t know how to react to this anymore because 5 years ago, not only was this unimaginable, but I never thought about the possibility of it. Grateful for peace in the parenting space.
Indiblogger sent over the absolutely gorgeous certificate for the Indian Blogger Awards for 2017 in the relationships category. Just seeing it made me smile. Perhaps this blogging thing is just meant to be and I am so grateful for all the love and virtual hugs I received.
Lessons from June
June taught me to slow down, even more than I already have. It explained to me, gently, that it doesn’t matter how quickly we get to a destination. What matters is that we don’t stop moving. (That’s a paraphrase of Confucius’ quote, by the way)
I learnt that sometimes the simplest of things give the greatest of joys, such as discovering a 17-year-old steel tiffin box which my daughter now takes to school with delight.
I found it in a beautiful game of story cubes that she plays, using creativity to explore known stories with a different spin. (Catch the video below)
By switching off earlier each night and cutting back on my online activity, I found a greater peace and an enhanced effect on my mood and body.
In learning to consume content online with intent and purpose as well as using social media mindfully, I began to enjoy the little time I spent on these platforms.
And through it all, I found that the friendships and the people don’t disappear. If anything, the connections I have now are stronger than they were a year ago. If this isn’t worth being grateful for, tell me what is. 🙂
And with that I look forward to July, which holds a few special milestones of its own. I hope and pray that your June was filled with good things too? Do share in the comments.
Even better, write a post on your blog and link up with Vidya Sury and her gratitude circle. She hosts it every month on the last Thursday.